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September 09th, 2019

9/9/2019

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LOG
  • i freaked out like crazy this morning/feeling suicidal
  • mama and i called AMA about skin laser treatment for friday
  • didn't leave bed until 3ish
  • mama broke down crying around 5ish; i know it's because of me; i felt so numb and helpless
  • feeling more normal at night/my face looks more recognizable
  • ate more than i should've around midnight but didn't purge
  • ​scared for tomorrow as usual
WHAT HELPS
  • praying rosary
  • saying Jesus over and over
  • burning bay leaves/soaking feet in them
  • friends reaching out
  • drinking lots of water
  • gargling salt water to reduce swelling from purging
  • listener from 7 cups said my outbursts may not be because of immaturity but because of anger issues; essentially saying that it may not be my fault; i still feel guilty but also it would be relieving if i could alleviate some of this blame and self-hate
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