Today, I overheard a guy at work make a joke:
"Tiffany can't have more than 3 Asians in her cubicle."
Immediately, my two other Asian coworkers mentioned it was racist and that he wouldn't say that about white people but they kind of laughed it off. His defense was "It's Tiffany's rule, not mine!" Which made it even worse that he was deflecting blame. 

I didn't see who he was, which is probably best since I'd feel really weird around him from this point on. It kind of bothers me you know?

And I'm happy with that :)

I really need to STOP obsessing over tiny detailsssssssssssssssss

I thought he liked me more than I liked him, but holy shit I'm so full of it.

I invited him over to watch movies because that's all I've been wanting to do this week: watch movies with him. But then I had to pick up a bookshelf from a friend and I thought it would be cute to ask him to help bring it to my dorm. Then ensued a series of unfortunate events:

1. He seemed really reluctant to help
2. We ended up waiting for my friend for 20 minutes because she was either dealing with medical or landlord issues: still not clear what
3. While we waited, conversation was so trying. He was so over it.
4. The bookshelf was heavier than expected: a 2-person job instead of 1
5. I carried the shelf backward for like 20 minutes with him forced to stare at sweat cascade down my face and hair get in my eyes. No talking, just me struggling with him definitely regretting agreeing to "watch movies"
6. Once we got back, an hour had passed and I was going to go get my shit together in the bathroom before we watched the movie when he said "Not because of this, but I need to go work on my photos" really putting emphasis on "not because of this" to the point where I knew it was because of this.

I mean, you'd think I'd be crying over that blow but I honestly don't really want to care at this point. Fuck it. Not everything is meant to be some beautiful scene out a movie.

He's a nice guy though, hope he has a good life.

I always fuck things up somehow.

*edit* 
I tend to overreact.

But like damn, I want to be happy in my own head. Gotta make it more interesting in here.