May 14th, 2019 PT 2

all i want to do is scream into the infinite nothingness of this world and ask "what does it all mean?"

i feel so incredibly lost and inadequate at the moment; as a creative but subsequently also as a person

i have no idea what i'm supposed to do or what i'm meant to contribute

i don't know what it'll take to make me content and that scares me

it scares me when all i feel is nostalgia and longing for what i think makes others happy​

i'm just defeated, disappointed, and i guess it's ok to admit sad as well