September 23rd, 2019

LOG

• woke up feeling ok
• went to interview with Salon One 9 about social media position and now feel overwhelmed again; i feel so indecisive and unable to figure out what i need to do moving forward
• 6:30 feeling suicidal
• ended the night finally working on Arigato Grande questions/model and talking to Mafalda about living on Mars

SKIN

• roughness almost all gone
• pimples still on face

FEELINGS

• i still feel stuck all the time and very much a lack of control; my mind is never at peace