i don't care how much you love your family,
your friends, that boy you can't stop thinking about, that job that you kind of tolerate, that project that fills your soul, don't forget you need to be selfish that you need to make your world revolve around yourself you're not a saint for putting them all first, silently hoping for the same in return you're not the victim for always saying you deserve more but giving yourself less don't assume someone or something is going to prioritize you it's a privilege so don't anticipate it like a right when you give your everything don't be surprised if it doesn't come back whole expect whatever you hand off to potentially come back broken be ok with it let that be the expectation sometimes there will be exceptions when you can only give pieces and someone gives you far more than you can reciprocate and it'll be nice maybe it'll feel like too much but cherish it remember it's rare so please don't forget you need to be selfish that you need to make your world revolve around yourself i'm starting to realize that the point of life is to distract yourself to the point where you can't think about how it's all meaningless
I had my second shroom trip yesterday, a week after my first one
2.3 grams lemon tek It was an incredibly painful, but potentially necessary, trip. I won't be too detailed but I'll jot down main moments
Takeaways
THIS SONG Yesterday I tripped on mushrooms.
Mama was my tripsitter. Wednesday night before
lemon tek 1:20
takeaways
how is it possible that this world can't afford me my own share of happiness whatever it may look like?
"I wish I knew how to make the small victories add up"
i read something about the inevitability of take 3 steps forward and 2 steps back in life
that actually is really comforting |
"I'm afraid so. You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are."
-Alice Kingsley Archives
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