WHAT IS LIFEEEEE

I GOT INTO FILM SCHOOL
​overwhelmed but exactly where I need to be

[cont.]
It's a day later and I've had time to reflect on why I'm going to do it, but with so much hesitation and resistance. Why is my decision based on potential regret rather than present triumph?

1) TFT's admissions consciously decided to disregard all internal applicants last year. If it weren't for Bryan (who fucking didn't even make it), I wouldn't have been admitted:

• I feel like an afterthought
• I won't graduate owing TFT anything
• This feels a little wrong, like acquiescing to the enemy; I took the bait

2) Ex-Economics Major/Film Minor

• Adverse to last year's failure with my major, I've actually been working my ass off and I finally feel comfortable with Econ
• No more classes with Amandooo (one of the best human beans I've met in college)
• I only had 6 more classes to finish my major and 1 more class to finish my minor, but I'm now stuck with 20+ classes until graduation T.T
• I STILL HAVEN'T COMPLETED A FOREIGN LANGUAGE (and now I have to take 3 literature courses, which probably means summer school at this point)

3) The TFT Crowd

• Mentally, I've already said a big "FUCK YOU" to TFT for what they did last year
• I haven't gotten along swell with film students in the past so how will that change now?
• social situations aren't my forte

This is what I wanted all along but now I'm fucking scared I'm making the wrong decision. Does the film industry really have any more room for film majors? Would they be more perceptive to an economics major? Do I even need film school to do film? Am I capable on my own? Will I graduate in time?

All I know is I want to make films. God please help me get there.