July 30th, 2018

Life hurts so fucking much right now. All I want is a break, a break from my thoughts, a break from home, a break from the summer, a break from responsibility, a break from all this anxiety and depression.

I've never been this low before, and I surprise myself every day by drowning deeper and deeper.

I NEED AN OUT

Things I'm craving so badly:

1. A lazy night in with friends
2. A stable job that I love
3. To move out (a place where there's a big comfy couch and a beautiful view of the city at night)
4. To love and trust myself
5. For my creative drive to come back

I don't know if I'm ever going to get here. Please future Sabrina, if you ever get to this point, please place an edit below and tell me that everything turned out beautifully.