HOPE

Yesterday was ugly. Broke my glasses in half. Told my parents I didn't want to live. My dad spanked me for the first time in years. I was and am a kid.

Today, I have a plan:

1. Get on antidepressants and hope for the best (treat my depression and social anxiety)
2. Try to get a job either at Nick or at NBCUniversal
3. Finally drive alone
4. Finally get into self-care (maybe dye my hair a crazy color, we'll see)

I want to beat this for the first time in a long time. Please let it be possible.