FRESH

that's what i want to feel: fresh

i want to feel new again, to get rid of all the bad vibes i've been analyzing to no end, to stop enabling the negativity

it seems i want so badly to have the answers to everything, for my life to be  immaculate and pristine, but i'm trying my hardest to let go and move on when there's nothing to figure out

i'm going to work on self care because my excuses for everything else always comes back to me wanting to hide away from the rest of the world

my acne
my weight gain
my hair
my bulimia

i'm so sick of letting these familiar insecurities run my life. i just simply can't feel good if i know i look terrible and i don't have the luxury to pause my life while i make myself "presentable"

it may be petty but looking better, looking fresh, will help me feel fresh and hopefully lead into a new mini chapter of my life in time for the summer heat (which i am absolutely dreading but hey life goes on and i'm not staying behind in bed all day anymore).