I feel like the sore loser, but I don't know what the game is or who I'm playing against. I keep praying for an answer, for the reason why all of this happened. I'm so impatient it hurts.
Natalie told me that it helped her to do things that she was scared of. I'm scared of everything right now, so I know she's right. I can't just do nothing. I can't let this be all I was ever meant to be.
"I'm afraid so. You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are."