Ok, no more cryptic posts.
Because I told you that "whenever I talk about shooting my shot, it's about you"
Because you told me you only see us as platonic, not romantic, which is totally fine
But then we get along so well and you make me laugh and you take all my heavy and make it light
And then you mention "shoot your shot" 3 damn separate times when I'm trying so hard to play it cool
You didn't lead me on before, but how can you fucking tell me that this isn't a huge lead on?
That bringing up the phrase "shoot your shot" THE PHRASE THAT I EXPLICITLY MADE CLEAR IS ABOUT ME LIKING YOU is just platonic?
Because the thing is, if a guy liked me, but I didn't like him back, I wouldn't keep bringing up his damn confession over and over and over.
And what did you expect? I'm a dreamer. Of course I would internalize, and dream up the idea that you feel the same, that you were just testing the waters (seeing my reaction) before you dived in, but now I'm not so sure, and it fucking sucks
It sucks because it would be so much easier to get over you, if you didn't let me like you
But you do, and I like you so much more for it
I told you that I always want what I can't have, but you're the first I would want if I could just have you
Fuck you because I love you.
"I'm afraid so. You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are."