September 19th, 2019

LOG

• waking up feeling better in the morning (trying to use Ashley's advice and not judge my thoughts/let them flow past me)
• therapy at noon (went ok, left feeling a little paranoid but trying not to overthink)
• Joanna from salon asked me to interview for social media position next Monday
• searching for an endocrinologist, just going to keep mama's appointment (worried now that what i need is a gynecologist)
• Natalie heard back from Amanda's recommendation for an office PA, happy for her
• ate a lot last night but decided to not judge myself for it in the morning

SKIN

• cheeks starting to feel smoother
• little pimples still on right cheek
• running out of the moisturizer

WHAT HELPS

• subliminals at night
• holding my rosary/saying Jesus/praying Hail Mary
• acne improving
• British reality tv about food

FEELINGS

• still working on acceptance and forgiveness, i want to appreciate and love my parents and myself as well
• tired of beating myself up, invalidating the severity of my anxieties and negating my efforts
• at night, now i'm feeling like i'm not so much depressed as severely anxious, am i just creating excuses for myself?
• at night feeling like there is a normal