back home after one week in my first ever job in santa monica crashing at my friend's dad's luxury apartment without him knowing
i'm at the end of my world, feeling numb and sleeping is the only escape
i only can rely on blind stupid hope that something will change, because i've pretty much given up
this video is the only thing that makes sense
(ps silver lining: head PA did say i did a good job and hopes i come back)
"I'm afraid so. You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are."